My first visitors at Eagle Heights

I have had my I visitors to Eagle Heights today ... They were probably practicing Christianity ... So, they wanted to spend a few moments with me to know the meaning of natural disasters and their meaning in Bible ... How God finds a way to allow the meek to inherit the earth ...

I respect the fact they were my first visitors ... I respect the fact that they have a belief. I respected that they wanted to share. I collected the booklets they gave me ... I collected one of their numbers. I bid them good bye politely ...

Does it matter I leave the books idle ... Does it matter I do anything at all ... What mattered to me, was I gave myself the choice to hear them out ... the choice to partake their beliefs. The choice to be open. I shared what I am currently doing to awaken the collective consciousness out of people.

I closed the door with a smile ... that all was peaceful at the end ...

Thank you.

Acham thavir by Bharathi !

அச்சம் தவிர் நய்யப் புடை
மானம் போற்று ரவுத்திரம் பழகு

ஆண்மை தவறேல் தாழ்ந்து நடவேல்
சூரரை போற்று தீயோர்க்கு அஞ்சேல்

ஓய்தல் ஒழி நேர்பட பேசு
தாழ்ந்து நடவேல் சாவதற்கு அஞ்சேல்

காலம் அழியேல் கீழோர்க்கு அஞ்சேல்
போர் தொழில் பழகு தோல்வியில் கலங்கேல்

புதியன விரும்பு வீரியம் பெருக்கு
கெடுப்பது சோர்வு உண்மைக்கு அஞ்சேல்

வெடிப்பற பேசு நன்று கருது
வவ்வுதல் நீக்கு தவத்தினை நிரப்பு நீ

கற்றது ஒழுகு கைத்தொழில் போற்று
சேர்க்கை அழியேல் பேய்களுக்கு அஞ்சேல்

ஞாயிறு போற்று மந்திரம் வலிமை
சவுரியம் தகுமே எல்லாம் மெய் செய்
நாள் எல்லாம் மெய் செய்

I am

I hold the longest-held silence ever ...

Now

That makes my guiness record

The first ever ...

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I am in a state of unrest

I attract unrest ...

I desist mindless materialism,

I am mired by obsessed marketing,

I am worn down by the fear in the other ...

I react noticeably and become bland

to myself ...

I give to silence and the raking clay

settles down

To a new order ...

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I hold my reins against those bad ol' critical ways

I am critical, yet I now neither react nor share my 'critical' ways ...

For I love being a hard nut to crack ...

That makes surprises pleasant ...

I now see a flow, a new sense of direction ...

I give up on other hard ol' painful ways

For I acknowledge pain ...

I now neither react nor share my 'pain' ...

nor do I see the point in the other taking the share ...

I take a 'safe' happy distance ...

I see the universe aid my non-reactivity ...

I feel numbed by my own expectations

For I do know now,

of neither being reactive nor sharing is the best way

of being,

I now become passive and placid and peaceful ...

I see joy in being open and positive ...

I see my service to me ...

I see my smile back ...

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So, as I make peace now

With the bland present

That made my past happy

For I do know that is all but my mind's trick

So, let be ...

So, let be, my efforts

get harder at my pace ...

So, let be, my efforts

get better with all I truly desire ...

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I seek nature and brilliance,

I am thirsty of truth and cognizance,

I seek to hear, listen and share,

I seek to laugh and connect,

For this is all I know me to be,

(yet) Deep within,

I am scared to reach out,

So, let be ...

I still am building hopes ...

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I am ...

I find a way ...

If I were a butterfly,

I fly best on my own ...

If life were a garden,

butterflies come on their own ...

If I were a drop of water,

squeeze me not ...

If I were a flower,

pluck me not ...

If I were air,

trap me not ...

If I were a moment,

just see ...

for I find a way ...

like life does, like love does ...

to reach a place where I belong ...

where I am not squeezed, plucked, trapped ...

God made Himself in all ...

with love and freedom ...

I find a way

I find a way ...

I ... Not to ...

I seek to reconcile ...
Not to fight.

I silence within

Not to withdraw.

I seek to see

Not to prove.

I accept what I see

Not to defeat.

I pray to safety

Not to fear.

I distance to seek me

Not to revenge.

I dream to grow

Not to bloat.

I research to know ...

Not to pride.

I travel my tracks

Not to waste.

In Silence

Often times, we or the people we know, encounter difficult moments. My new affiliation to meditation helps me see hidden worlds ... in other words, the adaptive worlds hidden amidst the maladaptive compulsive strategies we gravitate to, mindlessly. So, I dedicate this poem for such a difficult moment ... to contemplate ourselves carefully ...

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I shut down ... Once thought it was the pain, Thence, thought ... It must be the ostracism ... I shut down ... for the pain came down then from quarters, I expected the least ... I shut down ... This time, because I knew It was a sign ... A beacon to perceive, observe ... A sign to let the dust settle ... A moment to pick the best to learn ... From the rest So, here I picked ... To bless those who 'made' the distance ... To 'make' habit(s) though not on stone ... To 'pick' my flawed image ... To 'yet' admire its pattern ... Without a bang or a whimper ... Just be ... So here I left ... My loaded chatter ... Without annoy or tantrum ... To observe the 'other's' too ... To admire their 'design' too ... Without annoy or tantrum ... Just be ... So here I see ... Me where I am ... They where they are ... The futility of seeing ends meet ... Yet, the beauty when they 'met' Out of their own will ... My infinite space/time filled with nothingness ... The potency of filling with worth ... Making nothingness sweeter ... I saw duty for me, for my mother, for my land ... for my dream ... I saw peace in me, I saw truth in me, I saw it all In silence ...